Hello? Rock Bottom? Is that you?

I've realized in the last few weeks, I've started 3 posts and left them to be finished another day.  One was about some school crap... one about friend annoyances... one about who-the-hell-knows what.  But my heart wasn't in them.

School has taken over my life.  I have so many courses with so many projects and so many, just, THINGS that I really don't know which way is up.  I had to actually buy a damn PLANNER just so I could keep it all straight.  This bitch usually ain't that organized!  It's madness, pure madness.  And probably the only thing that is keeping my mind off the other shit going down in my life. 

I've already posted about how much I hate being broke but... it's kind of getting overwhelming.  I know just about everyone is going through financial hell at this point and if you're not well... please send some extra cash my way because damn could I use it.  It's to the point that if I even think about my bank balance I get all anxious.  I had a little meltdown in my car the other day just thinking about my current financial status.  I can't even make it funny anymore.  It's just downright de-fucking-pressing.  I have no money.  No literally, as of the rent check clearing this morning, I had $5 in my account until my unemployment check got deposited.  I know how lucky I am to even GET unemployment but it's not a lot.  In fact, my car payment is already 4 days late and the only reason that I can even pay it this week is because my grandparents threw me a pity-party and loaned me some extra cash til next week.  And the game of Catch-Up just continues.  At least I don't have kids!  OMG, I don't know what I would do if I had to try and support someone besides myself.  Ok, that thought is just freaking me out so I have to stop.  Someone please hand me a paper bag to breathe into! 

Moving on... before I need to be commited...

I am praying that we have a snow day tomorrow and I don't have class.  I can't say that I was a huge fan of driving 35 mph aaalllll the way to school and aaalllll the way back home.  OMG it was ri-donk-ulous!!  I was putt-putting along a HIGHWAY at 30 mph and to try and stop getting "snow-hypnotized" I started thinking about my survival techniques if I were to get trapped in a snow bank.  So here's a fun list of things in my car at 5:00 pm today that would keep me alive.

• 3 blankets in my trunk (2 of which are covered in dead grass/leaves)
• 1 Sweet'nSalty Cashew snack bar
• 1 Cherry Blow Pop
• 1 green beach towel covered in dog fur
• 2 school books (1 with "listening cds")
• 2 lighters (in case I need to start a fire!)
• 3 cups (of assorted shapes and sizes... to collect snow to melt and drink)
• 1 black glove (besides the pair I was wearing)

I think I was fully prepared in case of emergency.  Not to mention that I had a fully charged CELL PHONE to call and have at least 1 of about 15 potential people to come rescue me, not including the police.  Plus, I was on a HIGHWAY... no more than a mile from a gas station, fast food restaurant, store or some sort of residence. 

I'm awesome.